seems motivation, or motorvation, is one of the most difficult concepts i have to overcome, as i have very little at present.
i seriously miss my brother. i did much because of him– sent pix–yeah those were for donny, not for me. wanted to show him how fun life could be.
well. yes life is fun. was a lot funner when i could share with my brother what i was up to.
i really miss him. i didnt realize how much of my motivation was so i could show donny what i was doing. we shared many moments in life, whether we were in same location or distant. now he is gone. with him seems to have gone much of what drove me thru life.
plans always change
i am sitting here now wondering how to manage my finances and haulout fees– damn they high now…i hope i can manage to pull her out of the water before birdee presents with serious issues requiring immediate hauling. i also need to repair that which broke on our trip here from barra. we blew out the genoa on our way here, and temporarily lost fluxgate compass of autopilot. now i get to learn why that happened.
i went door to door comparison shopping–it seems the only way i can afford to haul out is if i careen somewhere or head to guaymas, which i been avoiding like plague. desert doesnt agree with me, and allergy pills here are not the kind i can use. oops.
the only positivities i can see immediately in heading to guaymas would be being able to haulout cheaply and rent a place during the work, and potentially visit with momma occasionally, as usa is only 5 hours away, and momma even closer in goodyear. if i could convince momma to visit, she could ruffle bubbas furrzz with her fingers. he is sooo soft. funny how he grew so much after leaving san diego. his vet in sd weighed him in at 16.5 pounds with admonishment to have him lose weight– but he wasnt fat. he IS maine coon mix, and now weighs in at a very skinny 17.2 pounds, bone and skin with a lot of furrzzz. i love huge cats. the only disadvantage to a large kitty is stuffing his butt into a carrier. seems he will no longer submit to that treatment. patricia cane scared him seriously. he doesnt mind a tote bag, heavy and canvas. there was room in it for him wrapped somewhat in a towel with his heavy duty harness and his tether. he was soooo very good in the taxi and in vet office and on return he was out cold. would look up at me when i was carrying him home. his teeth are good–one is broken, but not dangerously so, and now all have no plaque. that was sooo ugly and he was getting sick from it, so it was way past time.
la jungla veterinaria is the best vet– dr rafael used to be a dockmate when we were first here. bubba had gone once to his office, but prefers to remain on boat.. i was able to hold him until he went to sleep for his treatment. the adventure was as painless an d trauma free as possible. so many vets have ye not assist with yer own scared critter, and that increases trauma to that critter logarithmically. in sd, they would pull him away from me and carry his scareded screaming toothy and shreddy self into a back room, wondering why he was so agitated. he only likes and trusts me. no one else.
i had a lovely vet in long beach many years ago who allowed me to hold my cats when i took em in for exams– that made life so much easier than listening to the scared screaming from another room. that noise is unnecessary, yet seems to be the song of the people of the vets waiting room. oops. i gauge my willingness to visit a vet by the noises i hear from the back of the vet office.
ok so i got cat attended to, now i just need to gather my motorvashuns together to manage my own life and birdee
. but it is so much easier to do stuff when there is someone ye show off for. dammit i miss my brother. we donot know how much we miss another until there is no option for ever meeting up again.
love my new boom. isnt it lovely wood?? is perota, aka ipe, or huanacaxtle wood. i want the other horizontal spars of it also. beautiful stuff and makes for a sweet appearance.
SK Solitary Bird 
Your brother was a spiritual being having a human experience. He’s still part of the universe and lives in your heart. I believe , or at least I hope that all you need to do is close your eyes and talk to him. I’m sure he’s listening.
Be grateful you have everything you need although not everything you want.
Bubba and you are not in the line of fire and realitively healthy.
The boom looks like a beautiful piece of art.
I’m here in Niagara Falls looking after momma who is doing well considering she’s bed ridden and will be 96 in December.
All my love from far away my friend.
Cheers.
Desiderata by Max Ehrmann
Desiderata: Words For Life (pob)
by Max Ehrmann
Want to Read
Read in January 2001
Desiderata
Go placidly amid the noise and the haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible without surrender be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even to the dull and the ignorant, they too have their story. Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain or bitter; for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself. Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs, for the world is full of trickery. But let not this blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals, and everywhere life is full of heroism. Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is as perennial as the grass. Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness. Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.
Therefore, be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be. And whatever your labors and aspirations in the noisy confusion of life, keep peace in your soul. With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams; it is still a beautiful world. Be cheerful.
Strive to be happy.
There. You just read it. It’s beautiful. Go out and buy a beautiful copy for yourself, or to give as a gift. Be sure to send one to me. (my copy is long gone…)
And one of my favourite poems about life to warm your soul.
thankyou david for the emotional respite in these words.
and thankyou for what you do for me. miracle!!
life truly rocks. yes i do speak with donny. and often i feel only a swelling feeling all encompassing loving the planet.
yes i have bubba and birdee and a lot of work. is a lovely life. i an thankful for the friends — those i have and those i have not yet met, and all i have and am.
i speak with all my old ones also.
they watch over all of us kids. they are always loved.
thankyou amigo.
david all the ways i tried to thankyou for your generosity have seemingly failed. please accept my thanks for your generous gift. it has been put to good use..tried email and i tried linked in.. i hope my email arrived with you